self-hurting
Sigh . .
i know i am just hurting myself more with all this asking and not getting an answer. But, your actions sometimes just confuses me. I have my own blame, and im very unhappy about it, yet is there anything left to salvage?
i really dont know.
i miss you badly – your touch, your hugs, your kisses. I miss you as if i had not seen you in ages, because, that is how it really feels, eventhough i see you everyday. Others may like me, may want to help me forget, but i dont want to. I just want you.
that is my only wish, and no matter how much i seem to block it out, from others’ eyes, i know i havent really. i have been lying to everyone, especially myself, that i have gotten over you – maybe for awhile, i have, but not overall.
it’s those little things you do, that pull me back. But, i know it’s like falling over, and over, again, whenever this happens. Im just floating in mid-air, not knowing what’s happening; neither coming, nor going. Probably, waiting for you to accept me again, though i think it is near never for that
